How to ignore the SAD and HURT

I think this post only my blog followers can read due to i stop my facebook account..Some of the peoples can't click the link that provide by me on my wall page d~

Last night,something happened..
The sadness still hasn't gone,insomnia the whole night..
Gastric the whole night..
Went out alone in the midnight,the street was so dark and quiet..
I should feel the scary but i didn't,maybe just because my brain is blank and the heart is pain...
Feels like to cry but i didn't..Just because i already used to it the feeling..

Maybe its doesn't matter to you but its matter to me...
Whatever you can do at me~ Hit me,scold me,bite me but can't ignore my call...
Do you know how sad is me when u click the end call button??
1st time.........
2nd times..........
It was makes me think back the case which is happened on 16th Oct 2009...
The 1st calling.....
2nd.........
3rd..........
4th..........
5th..........
Finally,voice mail...
My heart was as pain as heart attack..
After half year,i got the same feeling again..
I am not angry at all,but i sad and disappointed..
I could understand you were very angry and not in the mood when i calling you..
But,i really hope you can take care of my feeling..
Maybe for some guys,they never understand..
That why i didn't blame on anyone..

I don't dare to loves again..It was makes my heart damn pain...I promised myself cannot drop a single tear because of a guy..
After an hour sleep,woke up and out for work...When having my lunch alone at the corner,i was looking at the lunch box,all those rices are mixing with my tears..Telling myself,another 10 seconds gotta stop it...It's hard for me...
I need a shoulder, a hug, a talk...But i don't have...

Its hurt me so deep,is because i love u deeply~
I unable to forget the moment when i saw you end my calling..Never and ever~
Sorry..........

I have to say SORRY again to you as well,but i was just play for fun..Maybe you still don't know what's a girl purpose to do that~ But its not important to know anymore..
I hope you can forgive me...

Is it the only way to protect myself not to get hurt again is only to be alone, single and not available? I'm tired of it...

Chrys and Debbie.. See you guys on this coming Friday at KLCC ya~
Beer session and a long chat...
I don't care the eyes and the scar anymore...I need alcohol...

Danny and Kelvin..You guys really makes me *touching* till the tears dropping..Just because i unhappy and you guys planning to comes KL visit me and club with me...

Number,Daddy and my buddies...Thanks for the support although all of you don't know what's going on and what happened to me....You guys always give me a warm support without any question~

In these 2 weeks,2 of my ex came and look for me...I think i know what u guys want...But,so sorry about it...I won't let a same guy to hurt me the 2nd time...Whatever la,we still can be normal friend~

Without all of you,i don't know how to spend my sad sad day.. Thank to you all for the concerns ^^

Anyhow,after the long talk...I thought my sadness will gone...But it doesn't...Is it another insomnia night??

Bitch.. Emo Bitch..

***Bitch,Emo bitch***
Hey girl,stop acting innocent over there..
You are not OK! You are not!!
What you are have to facing now is just because you did the decision..
That's what you told me and now you are telling me *regretted* ??
Oh No Way!! I won't help you..
You are not a kid anymore..Please understand the responsibility..
Stop Emo-ing over there and stop affecting peoples that around you..
Do you know i was damn bored when peoples asking me how comes nowadays you are so emo..
We are tired and bored of talking about you..
Whenever they talk about you,i will only say stop talking about HER..
She wanna be an emo girl,she wanna act like so innocent!!
Lets HER be...
I swear,if you find something to argue with me,i will start it and fight with you..
Bitch, please listen carefully now..
I am not the one who is like to fight with people,not only you but everyone..
And i don't hope you are interested to do that to me~
Maybe i should ignored it since you are just a nobody..
However,if you are really interested to piss me off then just go ahead ^^

***complicated Relationship***
It's hard to explain to you since you are a guy and i am a girl~
You love her is because you need her OR
You need her because you love her??

I will say she's still loves you but giving up...
You still got the last chance since she hasn't got a boyfriend now but yet..
What you told me is you love her the most but in the same time,you love the current girlfriend as well...
You could only choose either ONE..
No any girls are willing to share a boyfriend with another girl~
Got it???
Friend,be steady and be stable!
Anyhow,i will support you always but please be understanding that i am a girl,it means i will support the girl the most ^^

***Counting Down***
Yippie Yippie......
Another 10 days to go,29/5 is coming coming coming soon :p
I hope everything are fine to me and the doctor's will tell me that Agnes is fully recovered :p
I can't wait for back to party life!!!
Damn no life in this month,hard to alive without alcohol and party..
By the way,it does makes my body and health becomes more healthy and slim slim :p

***Hubby ar Hubby***
I am so excited now!!
Although i still feel like dreaming now,because the decision u make was too suddenly...
But anyhow,i really really very very happy when i know you are coming back in Malaysia very soon ^^
My life will become more wonderful again because i got you..
I won't feel the loneliness anymore..
The most important is...Please clear the *hutang list* :p
Can't wait to see you ya my loveeeee...Miss you!!

16051020 Sunday

Finally,it comes~
Just be mad at it~ Don't try to piss me off on these coming few days!
I really need a good rest~

Hairdo plan was postponed to next weekend as i couldn't make it due to some personal reason~
Went to Sg Wang with 2 leng lui & mummy for brunch (U-Village)
I bought a SK-2 cleansing foam and Shiseido eyes cream..
Some chocolates from Isetan..
Walk until i feel the pain like hell then i decided to stop shopping and go home~

Monday is coming again & i am waiting for another weekend ^^
Hubby is coming home........Makes me so excited^^
How wish today is already 31/5 but not 16/5..
Mr Daryl,faster book your return flight and let me know the date and time!
Fast fast fast!!!

!!!.....ENDING.....!!!

I am really very down now!!
You were spoil my Friday..My happy shopping day..
Why you treat me like that? Why??

After tonight,we won't be friend anymore even through just a friend~
As you tell me *As you wish*
Stop talking all of the old memories to me...
My new life was start and i love my new life with my new friends new buddies & my hubby very much~
Stop contact each other and just treat me as a stranger OK...
This is the last time to talk about you and HER..
In my future,my life won't have both of you..
We don't have anything related to each other anymore~
Everything is totally END and no next time~
Forget all of the old memories as i really don't wanna remember and talk about that~
From now on,we are the stranger to each other~
This is what i wish and what i want~
Delete my contact number and i did so...
I am here to wish you will get your dream girl...Take care~

To YOU..
What's your purpose to doing that?
I wish you can stop to view & read my blog...
If you really wanna piss me off then i have to inform you..
You Will Regret!!!
Can't you stop all the childish actions?
I was QUIT...
You could just do whatever you like but don't get me relate into it!
No next time thanks! I don't wanna listen anything about you!!
Stop all over it!!!

What a bad Friday~
Forgot bring the charger back home! Tomorrow morning hadda wake up earlier and go take my charger!! Sigh.....

Hubby..........
All of us are counting down for you^^ Welcome back in Malaysia^^ Soon.......
I won't be alone anymore~
I wish you are here now to accompany me when i down...

Family diNNer ♥ 10052010 ♥

Family Dinner~
Venue: Leisure Mall ^DRAGON-i^
Time: 7pm
Date: 10-05-2010
Member: Nes, Mom, Vicky, Pires & naughty little girl
Bill paid by: VICKY YAP (Thanks Boss) :p

We are planned dinner at Pavilion & shopping at Lot 10 Pavilion..
Unfortunately,it was raining very heavily..
So our plan changed to go Leisure Mall...
Lets plan another day to go Pavilion shop again^^

♥ Dinner Time ♥

This little girl is very naughty..
She's just as naughty as Agnes ^^
But we love her so much...Too cute to be true~
Agree??


===Xiu Long Bao===
One of my favourite..
I like the soup in between the pork & skin~


===Nai Wong Bao===
My stupid younger bro's ordered it~
Agnes DON'T LIKE it!


I'd like to order a bowl of soup,but there are just got few choices..
And Agnes only could order this:
===Pure Chicken Soup===


===Seafood TouFu in hot pot===
After i eaten few toufu,i only realized that the sauces is in Black colour..
Shit!!! Bless me & wish me luck~


I really don't know what's this...
Some kind likes fried chicken in small pieces~
The ingredients are dry chili & salt...(i guess)


===Vege Vege Vege===
A kind of LIGHT food...


===Beijing style of duckie===
Honestly,not really nice...


It was making by my stupid bro's...
He doesn't has the sense of art & creative :p
===Ugly Duckie Set===


I was asking my bro to feeds her some *Dry Chili*
hahahahaha~ But she was just too clever..
---Turned the head to the other side---


* Dinner Finished *


Ops..Guys.....!!!!!
Don't disturb me on these coming few days to 1 week~
Don't mess with me,i am serious!!

Another 18 days to go ^^
Hope the doctor will tell me that i am FULLY RECOVER~
Then is time to back to Clubbing Party life~
All the Handsome & Pretty..Ladies & Gentlemen...
I know you guys are waiting for me~
I will be back soon~ Pheeeweeee.....

A day with Mummy's ♥

I had a great day with mummy..
Went to one of my favorite place ♥ Bangsar ♥

We were having lunch at Sakae Sushi..
So regretted to go there because i only can take Ramen as my lunch!!
My mummy's ate many plate of *red plate* sushi and Mochi..
And me,just the Teppanyaki Chicken Ramen..

Finished our lunch,should be is time to SHOP ^^
But outside is still raining likes a dog!!
We have to stuck in the Bangsar Village 2..
So i decided to go Nails Couture to remove my *jelly nails* & manicure^^
She told me that my nails is in BAD condition,i can't colouring my nails in these 3 weeks and no more nails extension!!
I was fucking SAD when i heard that!
I bought a bottle of Nails Envy & remover~
==Fake nails remover + Manicure + 2 bottles==
All together she cost me RM 260.. Damn!!!
I promised mummy's,i will bring her comes again for the pedicure & i will go for the pedicure *foot spa* ♥

♥ Shopping Session ♥
I bought two pieces of dress & a belt~
Agnes like it so much~
Total amount = RM 230 ^^ (for May'2010)
No more shopping for this month,i hope i can do it :p
After done my shopping,heading to * Juice *
Was looking the *shoes* for my Hubby ♥
Unfortunately,the shoes already out of stock!!
The price is RM 900 ++
Damn expensive..Because it is *limited*
Limited edition and only few pairs in Malaysia~

How sad when i heard that!
I thought i can give my Darling a surprise!!
**Because the time when he online & see my FB status,sure he know i was looking the shoes for him,and at the same time,the shoes should be with me d**
But......................
Sigh.....................

The boy told me that will have ONE limited edition short shoes coming soon,should be available in next month..Probably the stock is less than 10 pairs..

No mood after visited the Juice..
Decided to go Alexis & have a cup of hot chocolate~
Hope the drink can cheers up my mood again ^^



My mom's asked me about the fucker in sudden..
And this topic of him was last for 10 minutes..
Time to changes topic!!
We were talking about my hubby and it's very funny when i talked about him to my mom's ^^
See!! You brought a lot of joy to me ♥
I told my mom's..You wanted me to cook for you..
I thought she will stand at my side & support me not to cook for you~
But!! She just said that:
Girl,then i teach you how to cooks the ABC soup & others..
What the fuck!
I can't imagine when the day both of them meet & bully me together!!

Some one told me,bully me is one of his hobby..
If only love me will be very bored..
Damn it...But what to do...
I just love the naughty boy~
Darling Daryl, I ♥ You..

Every day i also have to take some times for some treatment~
I am so lazy to do that but i have no choice..
I don't hope to be a pork chop!

I ♥ SK2 (after face cleansing)


* after hair wash * i don't like it but i still have to use it!


My Pretty House new members..Use it EVERYDAY onto my nails!


♥ Everyday ♥
After wake up & Before sleep


My life can't live without my pretty house members..
Recently,without any makes up...
It is good to let the skin has a rest...^^

What do you want!!!!!

Dad, just tell us straightly!!!
What do you want?
Don't you know u keep doing those stupid things is really damn pissed us off..
Can't you try another way to concerns us?
Is that the only way that u could do for us?
I tell you,we are really disappointed at you!!
Stop talking those fucking words to makes my mom's unhappy n sad!!
I am so lucky that u never have my contact number..
If not,i will fucking regretted for sure~
Can't you don't call her when u are get drunk??
I really don't know what is in your mind and what are you thinking??
You are not a young man,but u are childish than a younger~
I know i shouldn't say it to you like that!
As you are my dad but not a nobody~

What the fucking feeling when dinner with you was just like dinner with a stranger~
I know if you are hear it surely will scold me or be fucking sad!!
But,i just say the truth..
Meet you twice in a year~
Family day?? what's that?
What does a father should do for a family?
For his wife & children?
U don't know what's responsibility!!
Maybe u have your personal reason,but u might to share with us coz we are a family¬
But you never!!

I wish my mummy's will be having a happy mother day..
Don't ever try to spoil her mood!
Mr Yap,thanks for your cooperation..