Bad :( Sad :( Stress :(

Unlucky..badly..sadly..

AH.....Stressful..
I hate these few days, all the bad things came to me!!!
I hate working, hate driving, hate meeting, hate all the client..
Why?? Why me???

Why now a day, work in line of event/modeling are so difficult!!!
Why all the client are same?? All delay payment..
Cheating my payment, only few thousand ringgit..
Just a litter money also don't want to pay me!!!
I need to use my money to pay my girl?? No way!!
What can i do??? I only can try my best to keep calling, keep asking them everyday~~
Waist my money to sms and call them, actually my money is not worth to use for that bad
client, right??
Why?? Why me??? Why play me???

Really feel like to stop all the jobs and stop every things in KL.
I wanna leave from KL~~~
Don't want to stay here anymore..
Don't want meet all event freelancer, don't want meet my friends!!!
Only connect with my darling and family~~~

Where should i go???
A place of peaceful/happiness/fresh air/nobody know me~~~
Ya~~~ Ice island~~~ ^o^

Go alone!!!
Nobody accompany me, nobody chat with me, nobody ask me,
nobody play with me, nobody share food with me!!!
Having 3 meal alone, read book alone, sleep alone, dance alone, sing alone,
play alone, shopping alone, walk alone, watch TV alone, drink alone, swim alone,
clubbing alone~~~

Bring 2 bags~~~
few tops, few pants, few skirts, few dresses, 1 slipper, 1 spot shoes, 1 shocks, 1 high heels,
all makeup tools in a small bag, sun glasses, some medicine, ballet tap jazz point shoes,
yoga map, note book, pen, book, map, hand phone, cash, credit cards.. That's all~~

Don't ask where am i~~ Don't ask who am i~~ Don't ask my name~~
Don't ask my age~~ Don't ask where i from~~ Don't ask how long i stay~~
Don't talk to me, just leave me alone..

I won't stay in hotel, because i am just a poor litter girl~~
My money only for my meal,dance class fees..
I will try to work in dance school and sleep in dance school..
So that i don't need to pay for accommodation :)

Just dance for whole day.. No stress, very relax to enjoy my whole day :)
That's what i need now~~

开始教舞蹈课啰 ^o^

Am i a top student in ballet class?? haha... don't know!! Only know that i am a lazy student!!
So i stop to dance almost 4 years..
But this year 2008 i decided to continue all my dance classes..
Ballet,Contemporary,Tap,Jazz,Yoga,Pilates..
But need a lot money to pay the fees ya~~~
So i decided to supply girl to work as a dinner girl in night club.
Only this way i can earn more money and got time to go for dance classes..

Today i think is my lucky day,because aunt Amy's told me that,my lovely teacher Miss Liew's
asked me start to teaching dance class.
So happy but afraid something..
Because i am not really understanding what is CDPC class..
So i don't know what should i prepare?? what should i teach??
what should i tell my student?? What should i wear??
Ballet mix yoga?? Yoga mix jazz?? Ballet mix modern dance?? Tap mix mordern dance??
DON'T KNOW AH!!!!!
I'll try my best~~ I believe i can do it well~~
I can't make my teacher/family/boy friend/friends disappoint again~~

all of them will supporting me always right??
Tomorrow wanna go KLCC Kinokuniya book store buy a book.
Last few day i bought a book from there-Step by Step Ballet Class-..
This time i want buy -How to teach children dance-..
I think i need it and the book is useful for me~~~
RM 100++ is that worth??
Why all dance books are so expensive??

新生活~~瑜伽

~~我未来的生活都会离不开瑜伽~~

瑜伽是我新生活的重要部份.. 以前喜爱舞蹈的我，从未想过要接触这门神圣的运动~~
是因为都觉得它是辛苦的，无聊的，和舞蹈一点关系都没有~~
一班三四十岁的aunt坐在瑜伽垫上，闭上双眼，吸气...呼气...从复又从复的...
在门外观看的我，看得快睡着了~~~
但这门运动越来越热，越来越多人学.. 我真不明白??
但今年因为某个人 某个原因 某个机会下，我和瑜伽结缘咯~~~
就是这样，我>>美杉<< 爱上这门辛苦但我享受的运动~~ ：）
我的生活每天都离不开瑜伽，离不开汗水，离不开疼痛..
那种筋~~肌肉的疼痛... 我已习惯，也学会享受 ：）

My Dream :)

经常问自己的梦想是什么??

经常想自己的未来是怎样??

我的未来还是舞蹈吗??

我有一个梦~~那就是出国习舞咯~~
首选就是Canada~~ Hong Kong~~ Taiwan~~ India~~ Australia!!

最近常问自己~~ 明年尾能吗??
后年过了新年能吗??

学费够吗?? 生活费够吗?? 需要准备多少钱留在马来西亚给家人??

为什么他不是位负责任的男人??
为什么他不能照顾家人??
如果他是位可以照顾家庭的男人，我想我的出国计划能顺顺利利~~

不过我也不是那么的衰啦!!! 我还有我妈..我妹..我弟..还有我这辈子最能依靠的男人 :)

我还是相信上帝会帮我的~~~

Even i am not a christian :)

依我的性格.. 我的家庭压力.. 我的耐性..
我的梦还能维持多久??

记得我最敬爱的老师对我说过~~
路不是直的，不可能很顺利就走完，总会有些障碍...

以前还不理解，现在才明白会迟吗??

我的梦会实现吗?? 我的他会一直帮我吗??
不知道当梦想实现的感觉是如何的呢?? :) ?? ^o^

从新开始

My feets in my point shoes..Do you know what's the feeling when i wear the point shoes??
Answer is PAIN pain PAIN!!!!!Other than painful i can't find a best answer to you~~

为何所有芭蕾舞学生都想穿上这双舞鞋？？它是芭蕾舞的代表吗？？
四年前，我终于穿上这双舞鞋咯~~但是.....时间太短了!!
某种因述另我放弃了这双舞鞋...放弃了所有舞蹈...所有舞蹈班!!!
后悔至今~~但无补于事~~
就快四年了..庆幸的是我放弃的时间不到满四年 :)
三年多..如果说三年多是不是比四年来的好听??哈哈
2008是我的新开始..继续习舞..这才是我要的 :)
继续舞蹈学生生活的我有点不一样咯!!因为~~莫耀聪~~sweet..哈哈

My first post

This is my first post :)

Don't know wanna type what!!

Just wanna said i am just finish my yoga class :)

Really tired but feel good..haha...

?????Feel good??

After you join then will know what i meant..

See my dance shoes??>>Tap shoes,ballet charater shoes,ballet point shoes<<

I belive my dance shoes will bring along happy to me ^o^

Tomorrow will tell you my dance story :)