Finally...END

Finally, i heard what i wanna listen from you..
--Enough--
--Pretend never knew you-- and ect..
Thanks for those words my love, it was really could make me totally give up and let you go and of cause won't think you so much...

You should know that i can't just simple to pretend never knew you ^^
But i will try my best to do it as you wish~
I am not going to know what is the reason anymore and just leave you alone like that...

Here i wanna say something to you *last* and *no more*

Thank you for these few months for those sweet ever memories..
Thank you for given me the special warm feeling..
Thank you for those concerns when i was down and unhappy,especially during my operation..
Thank you for calling and sms me everyday when you are in South Africa... I knew the amount of the bill is damn high...
Thank you for buying the BB even though you still haven't activate the BIS since you were in South Africa till now.. I won't have the chance to see your name appear on my BBM contact list anymore~ But i hope you will enjoy the entertainment through the BB~

Sorry to you if i did something to make you feel not well...
Sorry to you if i said something to make you angry at me...
Sorry to you if i always sms you to make you feel like i disturbed you..
SMS you ----> just wanna concern you as i treat you as my friend..
Sorry if i did wrong.. I won't do it anymore!

Daryl, take good care of yourself.. Wish your businesses are doing well and smooth..All of the problems sure can be settle by you as i know you are strong enough ^^ Enjoy your life~ Not going to say Sorry anymore but Thank You :p
I hope we can talk with each other face to face one day but not now, chatting without stress just like normal friend ^^ Take Care~

Yesterday i was allowed myself to let my tears dropping from my sleepy eyes..I was telling myself,just the few minutes OK? After all these everything will be alright..No more pain and suffer,stop thinking and stop blaming..Upset for a week is more than enough,not worth to let the sadness full filled my mind~

Gosh!!! I did it... I feel the fresh of my new life again..I had a very busy day,although i still have think of you a few moments,but it didn't affect my mood or be a emo crab again ^^
**Crap for myself**

I am starting my new life again..I am single but not available now till i get to meet a guy that can give me the good feeling.. But i promised to myself won't fall in love easily and don't trust guys so simply..

Recent life is full of working, clubbing, party, shopping, yum cha ^^
I am planning to go Bukit Bintang with family for a yummy lunchie on Saturday then do some shopping *if Friday i won't go for clubbing la* hahaha
Sunday will going to Sunway Pyramid meet up with my dear for a relaxing lunch gossip session and do some shopping also ^^

Some one told me will going to buy me *my favorite japanese cheese cake* hahaha
I am waiting for it ya...Thankew bely muchie..

I do planning to go for a short relaxing trip with some closed friends ^^
BEACH!! I am gonna celebrate my birthday!! yea yea bili bala bili bala~~~lalala...

Last week of May'2010

Woo Hoo.....Finally today is 24th of May ^^
It's end of the month!!
Another don't know 10 or 11 days my hubby will be in Malaysia~
Lets continue counting down for it...

Today is my bad luck Monday..
Sigh...i am lazy to tell you guys about the story because i have been repeat and repeat to many peoples the same story!!

I am gonna open another new blog^^
Here got a lot of my old memories,i did share the sad and happy story with u guys since few years ago,and now i decided to stop to update any latest news here...
More than 200 posts,tonight i am going to read all of the old and new posts,after that i will stop~
I hope i can do it :p

Thanks for supporting me all the times..

A story gonna end soon...

两个生活在不同圈子，生活方式不一样的人如何能够在一起呢？
你每次都问为什么接受你？
关于这个问题，我真的没有一个答案。
我想你是一个好男人，所有你的好友都是这样告诉我。
但是，有些事情我真的不能接受。
就和你所说的一样 *I am who i am*
我能尝试去接受某些事情，但有些过分的我真的不能接受！
越了解对方就会使我们的距离拉得更远。
有些事情，越想要去忘记，但它越往心里进！
如果要你迁就我到那么不开心，那我只好说声 *SORRY*
原来恋爱的美好回忆就只有那开始的几个月。
每个女孩在一段恋情刚开始的时候，都会想要和对方有着那么一个 *forever*
为爱付出后换来的只有遗憾，失望，伤心。
后悔的可能是自己没有那么一份意志力去坚持，去维护这一段感情。
人生有太多的遗憾，而感情就占有超过五十巴仙。
男人们在刚开始的时候，会对你说一大堆东西。
他们从不知道，女生都会把它当真，永记在心！
当恋情结束的时候，这些收在心里的全部都会变成毒药，令到心里有着无数的疼痛～

我给自己一段时间，真的不适合，我会放手～
有缘无分的话，可能只适合做朋友～
无论如何，我还是深爱着你～
让我再为这段恋情努力吧。。Ganbatte..直到你让我放弃～

Thank to you my ai ren..
You are always so honest to me,whatever you told me i also keep it in my mind and will never forget..
Sorry about something,i have a complicated feeling that makes me lost the confident to maintain the relationship,i just be honest to you too..
I feel something,that's from female 6th senses..
Sometimes i trust horoscope is just because its always telling the truth,not asking to give up but find a solution..
Trust me,i will work harder to keep it on but not give up...Don't disappoint me,i believe that you are good man..
But,if i always ask you to stop this and that and makes you so unhappy,then i will stop it and let you go...I just want you to be happy with me but not suffer~

I have many things feels like to speak out,but i know i have to keep in my heart..

Darling,i hope you can control your temper because i am really scared of talking with you :p
I am really loves you too much to do so~
Maybe don't have forever this such thing,but i hope me & you can stay together as long as we can..
Miss you ^^

~~ 複雑な気持ち ~~

I have a complicated feeling these few days,i know i should stop thinking too much but i couldn't control it...Stop all over it and let the time prove everything..

I am wondering how comes you guys will tell me those things so sudden? Makes me don't know how to facing you guys,don't you know i am suffering of it? Stop telling me please,i will still treat yours as my friend..

Me & Him are happy together now,if you are planning to spoil my relationship then i gotta tell you that you will disappointed..If you know i am in a relationship with him now then you should stop thinking about that and don't tell me anything already~
I never flirt with you guys and i really do treat yours as my normal friend,if i was do something that makes yours misunderstood or gets wrong feeling then i apologized here~

To D1:
My name is Agnes,please don't call me as your BB! I don't accept anyone to call me this nick unless you are my hubby or my 3D...Just now when u told me those things,others than offline,i didn't know what else i can do~ Sorry.. Give me some times and i will talk to you again..

To D2:
Hmm..I was so surprise when you were telling me those things,i never expect you still remember me and kept me in your heart,support and concern me all the times quietly~ But i only can say *Thank to you for all these*,i won't and not willing related into any messy relationship..You said you want me,you need me~ Thanks for telling me this but what i think is only because you were unhappy at the moment and just needs a talk~ Anyhow,i hope i won't listen it from you anymore~ Keep the friendship and just let it go! Sorry if i said something not so nice to you..

I don't like to argue with anyone especially my loves,i was feel damn sad when argue with you..What i can do is only be silent,i think is the better way for you and me~
Agnes wants to say *sorry* again to YOU MR DLKJ~
If i make you unhappy or angry then please tell me straightly as i wanna know what i did wrongs ^^

可能我们的生活圈子完全不一样，迁就对方可能只会带来痛苦，现在能做的只是尝试。
如果有一天，我们是时候离开对方，希望我们是因了解而分开。
在我离开后，你能做任何你自己喜欢的事，而不需幸苦的迁就我。
其实，昨天的我真的很不开心，但我还是提起精神，发出我的笑声去和你谈，一切只希望你能开心。
从没想过要你完全改变你自己，我希望你改的只希望你能更好，可能我的想法是错误的。
我想你应该忘记答应过我什么了，苯苯的我三不五时还会查看回你发给我的短讯，我想是时候该删除了。
给自己多一点时间去更了解你，不适合就该放手，爱久了，伤越痛。
我永远都不会让自己再去相信 *Forever* 这玩意啦。
*Promise* 如果把它当真，只会让自己再有机会去体会什么是伤痛，失望。
星座配对的我和你，不该开始，天方夜谭。
我选择不去相信，因为我有的是信心，但是。。。。。信心越来越少了。
无可否认，和你在一起真的很开心，和你一起到老，一起生活也是我希望的。
但是，如果需要我放手的话。。。我会～
不知你是否察觉到，自从你决定要回来后，脾气真的很坏，我能感觉到的东西已不一样。
无论怎样都好，只要你开心，Go ahead......
有些事情不能说出口，摆在心里又很难过，把所有的东西放进这里真好，我的他看不明白，也没有人知道我说着谁，有的话也就可能只有那几位～
Wow.....~
心情好多了。。

How to ignore the SAD and HURT

I think this post only my blog followers can read due to i stop my facebook account..Some of the peoples can't click the link that provide by me on my wall page d~

Last night,something happened..
The sadness still hasn't gone,insomnia the whole night..
Gastric the whole night..
Went out alone in the midnight,the street was so dark and quiet..
I should feel the scary but i didn't,maybe just because my brain is blank and the heart is pain...
Feels like to cry but i didn't..Just because i already used to it the feeling..

Maybe its doesn't matter to you but its matter to me...
Whatever you can do at me~ Hit me,scold me,bite me but can't ignore my call...
Do you know how sad is me when u click the end call button??
1st time.........
2nd times..........
It was makes me think back the case which is happened on 16th Oct 2009...
The 1st calling.....
2nd.........
3rd..........
4th..........
5th..........
Finally,voice mail...
My heart was as pain as heart attack..
After half year,i got the same feeling again..
I am not angry at all,but i sad and disappointed..
I could understand you were very angry and not in the mood when i calling you..
But,i really hope you can take care of my feeling..
Maybe for some guys,they never understand..
That why i didn't blame on anyone..

I don't dare to loves again..It was makes my heart damn pain...I promised myself cannot drop a single tear because of a guy..
After an hour sleep,woke up and out for work...When having my lunch alone at the corner,i was looking at the lunch box,all those rices are mixing with my tears..Telling myself,another 10 seconds gotta stop it...It's hard for me...
I need a shoulder, a hug, a talk...But i don't have...

Its hurt me so deep,is because i love u deeply~
I unable to forget the moment when i saw you end my calling..Never and ever~
Sorry..........

I have to say SORRY again to you as well,but i was just play for fun..Maybe you still don't know what's a girl purpose to do that~ But its not important to know anymore..
I hope you can forgive me...

Is it the only way to protect myself not to get hurt again is only to be alone, single and not available? I'm tired of it...

Chrys and Debbie.. See you guys on this coming Friday at KLCC ya~
Beer session and a long chat...
I don't care the eyes and the scar anymore...I need alcohol...

Danny and Kelvin..You guys really makes me *touching* till the tears dropping..Just because i unhappy and you guys planning to comes KL visit me and club with me...

Number,Daddy and my buddies...Thanks for the support although all of you don't know what's going on and what happened to me....You guys always give me a warm support without any question~

In these 2 weeks,2 of my ex came and look for me...I think i know what u guys want...But,so sorry about it...I won't let a same guy to hurt me the 2nd time...Whatever la,we still can be normal friend~

Without all of you,i don't know how to spend my sad sad day.. Thank to you all for the concerns ^^

Anyhow,after the long talk...I thought my sadness will gone...But it doesn't...Is it another insomnia night??

Bitch.. Emo Bitch..

***Bitch,Emo bitch***
Hey girl,stop acting innocent over there..
You are not OK! You are not!!
What you are have to facing now is just because you did the decision..
That's what you told me and now you are telling me *regretted* ??
Oh No Way!! I won't help you..
You are not a kid anymore..Please understand the responsibility..
Stop Emo-ing over there and stop affecting peoples that around you..
Do you know i was damn bored when peoples asking me how comes nowadays you are so emo..
We are tired and bored of talking about you..
Whenever they talk about you,i will only say stop talking about HER..
She wanna be an emo girl,she wanna act like so innocent!!
Lets HER be...
I swear,if you find something to argue with me,i will start it and fight with you..
Bitch, please listen carefully now..
I am not the one who is like to fight with people,not only you but everyone..
And i don't hope you are interested to do that to me~
Maybe i should ignored it since you are just a nobody..
However,if you are really interested to piss me off then just go ahead ^^

***complicated Relationship***
It's hard to explain to you since you are a guy and i am a girl~
You love her is because you need her OR
You need her because you love her??

I will say she's still loves you but giving up...
You still got the last chance since she hasn't got a boyfriend now but yet..
What you told me is you love her the most but in the same time,you love the current girlfriend as well...
You could only choose either ONE..
No any girls are willing to share a boyfriend with another girl~
Got it???
Friend,be steady and be stable!
Anyhow,i will support you always but please be understanding that i am a girl,it means i will support the girl the most ^^

***Counting Down***
Yippie Yippie......
Another 10 days to go,29/5 is coming coming coming soon :p
I hope everything are fine to me and the doctor's will tell me that Agnes is fully recovered :p
I can't wait for back to party life!!!
Damn no life in this month,hard to alive without alcohol and party..
By the way,it does makes my body and health becomes more healthy and slim slim :p

***Hubby ar Hubby***
I am so excited now!!
Although i still feel like dreaming now,because the decision u make was too suddenly...
But anyhow,i really really very very happy when i know you are coming back in Malaysia very soon ^^
My life will become more wonderful again because i got you..
I won't feel the loneliness anymore..
The most important is...Please clear the *hutang list* :p
Can't wait to see you ya my loveeeee...Miss you!!

16051020 Sunday

Finally,it comes~
Just be mad at it~ Don't try to piss me off on these coming few days!
I really need a good rest~

Hairdo plan was postponed to next weekend as i couldn't make it due to some personal reason~
Went to Sg Wang with 2 leng lui & mummy for brunch (U-Village)
I bought a SK-2 cleansing foam and Shiseido eyes cream..
Some chocolates from Isetan..
Walk until i feel the pain like hell then i decided to stop shopping and go home~

Monday is coming again & i am waiting for another weekend ^^
Hubby is coming home........Makes me so excited^^
How wish today is already 31/5 but not 16/5..
Mr Daryl,faster book your return flight and let me know the date and time!
Fast fast fast!!!