01042010 1st day of April

Agnes is very happy!!
Just because of received her Darling call^^
It was very happy when talking with him on the phone..
I miss his voice..
Just now we did talk about the Chinese words :p
He don't even know how to write his name in Chinese but he told me that he'll learn how to write the *love* in Chinese ^^
Have a bet then..
I bet him won't learn and will never know how to write :p
hahaha...

I do have so much things would like to share with yours..
But,this time i just wanna keep all into my heart and just me and him know~
It's just belongs to me and him..
All the sweet memories and sweet talks ^^

Weekend is coming^^
I am still consider Saturday's wanna go KLCC Pavilion and Bangsar with Debbie or not??
Out of pocket!! Damn it...
But i decided to stop shopping since i still have a lot of new clothes :p
Spend money for my face and skin is much better than clothes ^^
Support my decision OK~

Darling..........
I have something would like to tell you,seriouslyyyyyy!!!!!
But not here!!!

To all my dears * by NeS *

Maybe you didn't need him as much as you thought you did..
When it was over you cried like the rain,
Just so the world could feel your pain...
You really did feel so lost without him,
But now that he is gone your not gonna look back...
And when you realized you were probably better off without him,
Was the best thing you ever did..
He really was your everything,
Maybe now he known he's lost his biggest fan..
You remember all the time you wished you never met him..
Cause sometime you still think it...
So now your still left searching for that one boy to prove you wrong and show you they're not all the same...
Maybe you still think about him..
But what difference would it make???
Even though you miss those days when,
He would just phone you for no reason...
Send you those texts that you found so hard to delete...
Put a smile on your face when no one else could..
And even if it was him who make you cry he seemed to be the only one who could make you stop...
You still think about what went so wrong..
Even though its too late...
When he said forever you were stupid enough to believe him..
So your left thinking when he said he loved you,did he ever really mean it???
That's when you remember nothing lasts forever..
You remember how it all started..
Even though you try to forget...
It's so hard when you see him..Sometimes you have to remind yourself your not together!
Why does something so perfect always have to come to an end..
It was just another mistake,its a shame you never learn through..
Maybe next time you will get your fairytale ending...
Just not this time...
Just remember everything happens for a reason...
There's so many things i could say,but i know you'd just walk away!
I miss your smile but i miss mine the most~
No matter how much i didn't believe it,i guess i know now we just weren't meant to be!
Giving up doesn't mean you weak~
Sometimes it means your strong enough to let go...
Stuck between weather you really want him back ,or just want the feeling of being loved back~
So she's left wondering if she'll ever get a second chance..
Leaving you would never have even crossed my mind...Not even once...
Guess you can't say the same!
You promised me so many things,but you forgot one thing *To Keep Them*
So many people ask what i saw in you,but to be honest i don't even know myself..
But whatever it is i still see it...
And so here the problem,i care too much and you couldn't care less...
I hope the day you look back on this is the day you realise what you had,
But by then i doubt i'll still be waiting..
So here's to another dead end..If Only You Still Felt The Same~

彼此的影响

一个决定，影响了我俩的生活。
我俩的生活方式有了转变。
我俩的作息时间已改变。
这是因为我俩有了那么一个的决定。
事情会变得如何？没有人会知道。
我只希望会越变越好!
有试过，至少有希望。
总好过以后的日子会有遗憾！
人生总会有无数的遗憾！
试过后，可能会变成遗憾！
没试过，也会变成遗憾！
人生就是有着无数的烦恼。
而八十巴仙的烦恼都是自找的！
我们总是喜欢在无聊的时候想些不必要的事。
而我就是这种人。
我希望我的出现会带给你有着无数的欢乐。
而不会影响到你的生活！
现在的心情不是很好，不多写了！
有点儿累，就让我今晚早点儿休息吧！

a dream ♥ a hope ♥ a wish ♥

I still remember i had a dream,
since so long ago and till now..
I still remember i had a hope,
since so many years ago and till now..
I still remember i had a wish,
since when was a little girl and till now..

I wish i could have a BIG teddy bear in chocolate colour~
Since i were a little girl,i wish my parents will buy me a teddy bear...
Since i were a teenager,i wish my friends will buy me a teddy bear as a present..
Since i were fall in love,i wish HIM will buy me a teddy bear without any reason..
But,just a dream..
All of you bought many presents to me,but no one is teddy bear~
lolx..
Every time when looking at the teddy bear,i wish i could bring you home...
But,it's meaningless..So i never buy for myself~
Just said Bye Bye and hope will see you in my room ^^

My mummy's promised me,she will buy me a Ballet music box with Ballet music..
But,how many years already??
I still haven't get the Ballet music box!!
Hopeless..

Everyone got their own dream ♥
And mine wan just a little dream~
A dream bout can get a teddy bear and ballet music box~
Some time,dream is beautiful..
Maybe,it's just a dream..a beautiful dream that always in my mind ♥
I have a dream ♥ that i wish one day i will dance on the big stage~
Solo...Only Agnes..The stage is only for me...
But i know it will not be possible happen in my life anymore~
Because,it's just a dream..
Every time,talk about Dances..
Only one feeling..SADNESS~

30032010 Tomorrow is 31032010

Another brand new month is coming up...
Thanks you for the *accompany* in this month..
Do you still remember what we did on the date of 010310 ??
I will never forget ^^

Here are something wanna tell you:
Darling ♥
Thanks everything in the month~
:thanks for the pampers
:thanks for the concerns
:thanks for the times
:thanks for those sms
:thanks for those msg
:thanks for those love songs
:thanks for calling
:thanks for all of the sweet words
:thanks for your true heart
:thanks for your honest
:thanks for..you really changed for those bad words
:thanks for your dating menu
:thanks for..you really willing to changes SE to BB
:thanks for.....everything!

1st day of March in 2010 is a meaningful date to me~
Today,i just wanna say TQ to you..
No miss you and love you..
Because..........Because.......... :p
Because.....hahahahaha
(don't wanna tell you guys)^^

My operation date confirmed!!
19th April'2010 11:30am
After operation,stop party and clubbing for 1 to 2 months!!
Oh My God!!
No alcohol,ginger,seafood,fried food,kicap,itik,sotong,egg and blablabla.....
I think this time i am gonna getting a lot of breads for the whole month..
Breads,nasi putih,pure vege,mee kosong and porridge only~
Only can online for a while,only can watch TV for a while..
Can't sleep too much~
So,i think i will just study at home...
Since i still got few of the new books haven't read yet!!
Yea~i should do it this way..

复杂的心情

哈哈。。。我的Darling可能现在正在想着为什么是中文的？
他听不明白也看不懂！没关系，反正就是没关系！

我是太得空太无聊了吗？
还是有太多的时间去想东想西？？
如果不去想的话，应该没这么烦！
但是，又如何能控制呢？
原来简单的生活不如我想象中容易得到。
是我把事情想得太复杂了吗？
在我问自己这些问题时，我的脑袋一片空白！
如果这个时候你能在我身边陪着我，那该有多好啊！
这不是一件小事，也不是我能容易得到的东西！
比想象中还难！
一些事情有些只能收进心里，但！
收得多，就会越幸苦！
但又不能对别人说！
还是那一句：
是我把事情想得太复杂了吗？
这个时候，我只想你能陪着我～

29032010 Normal as usual

Don't know what happened to my right hand...
It's painful and feeling out of energy...
Today let a Malay -chao sui- !!!
Damn...He was put his hand on my waist!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I sent an email to my boss,regarding my leave~
I wanna apply for 16th and 19th April'10...
Then my boss called and told me we will be having roadshow during the same date~
13rd until 18th April'10...
He asked me take leave for 19th till 22nd..
So,i said no problem lo...
It does means my operation will changes to 19th,hopefully the doctor is available~
Because i will only call them to changes the date for me on tomorrow~
I do scared pain..scared blood..scared scar..
But,what to do???
I have to take good care of myself after the operation!
Thanks for those support from my family and best buddies~
If without you guys,i don't think i will go for it~
You guys makes me brave enough :p
Especially to my Darling,even he don't want,but he's still support me~
A special *power* received from him..
And the power did work on me~
Thinking of him,i am not scared anymore~
How special it is??!!!
Because i love him,just because he's too special to me~

Tomorrow will going to bukit bintang help the dealer for one day!!
And got to go NY settle the RM1500 deposit,i think i will changes it to special facial treatment ^^
I can't wait for the operation ya!!!
Fast fast do,fast fast recover,fast fast back to party life~
I will stop clubbing life for 2 months!!!
Be a good girl stay at home and let it fully recover as soon as possible~