What am i thinking??

Emo-ing..
Maybe is just because i damn free now..
Ignored me...

I swear i won't stay at home during this coming weekend..
Surely will go out..
Can't wait to meet up with my dear ♥
I miss you~

Hey,buddies..
Please tell me what time is the dinner on this coming Sat or Sun ASAP la~
I have to arrange my time ^^
♥ Dating,Shopping,Gathering ♥
Can't wait for it ya~~~

I think my father's there got something wrongs with him..
They were telling my mother's something about him..
But,it was too complicated..
I don't know how to explain for this mess story..
Make me damn headache!
I am tired of listen of his story but he's my dad's..
I am tired of face up the problem for him but he's my dad's..
What does he gave me in these 20 years plus?
However,he's still my father's...
What can i do?
I couldn't help him at all,unless he's willing to changes himself..
But i don't think he will...
Guess what??!!!
Exactly...He's a bad husband's, an useless father's..
But what i can do?He's my only one father!!

He's the one forced me to be a strong girl~
He's the one make me to be tough~
But,sometimes.....
I'd rather i don't even know what's Strong & Tough..
It was makes me very tired and feel unsafe of my life~

I feel like to drop down everything & leave Malaysia..
Go wherever that i can..
Just alone..........
Meet my dearest friends.....
Start a new life.....
I wish i could but..........
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I am trying to make it to be happens~

♥ I Dare To Say ♥

I dare to say:
I will never regret what i choose..
Especially YOU *Daryl* ♥

I will never regret the way that i choose..
The way i choose,the way i walk ♥
No U-turn~

Never regretted to break with yours..
Especially YOU *Chung*..
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I dare to say:
I am a good girlfriend ♥

I will be a good wife ♥

I will be a good mother ♥
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P/s: Dare to say and Dare to do is difference oh :p
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Starting to learn cooking again..
Forgotten how many years didn't cook a table of foods by myself already~
Especially *Chinese Foods*
Gotta back to the life with learn cooking~
I am a clever girl..
I think it won't be a big problem to me...
But,i am a lazy girl...Lol
I admit,i am~
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This time i learn cooking is because of him ♥
I feel the happiness when i cooking n thinking of HIM ♥
This is what he bring to me,even through he's not beside of me...
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Mr Henry's told me that he's gonna marry soon^^
Really happy to heard that...
I can be 1 of the Ji Mui and play his Heng Dei..
hahahahaha.....
Let's chat more with him on coming weekend when i see him^^
He's going to buy me a lunch..Yuhoo~
Thank to you 1st ya~
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Arrrggg.....
Weekend is going to be END soon~
Monday again!! Monday blue ya!!!
I do hope my outlet won't be SO cold as last week...
I don't wanna get flu again..

Oh My God!!
My 013 & 016 lines were barred in the same time~
Can't use my BB online T_T
No BBM,No sms and call...
Tomorrow once i reach my outlet,surely will pay the 013 bill 1st..
My life can't live without my BB la...
Damn!!!

Is time to go bed,very sleepy after i took the medicine for my flu..
Good night & Sweet Dream to me ♥

About ...FAIR...

You were damn pissed me off today..
Don't ever to talk about *FAIR* this such thing to me anymore~
There's never no this such thing in this world~
Please be mature as you are not a kid..
Don't ever to ask me why why why how how how again!!
Think it before ask me...
I do hope you are not going to be another Jass's..
Something was changed didn't means it's only because of boss stingy or what!
Some rules created by boss is because of you..
And this time is 2nd times already!!
You should learn from the last lesson but u didn't..
And today u created another problem again and gets me into the trouble!!
What a GOOD job you did!!
Fair or not fair,it's never control by me...
And i never believed in it...
I just tried to fight for the best benefits for myself...
If you fight for it then maybe you can get it as well~
But u didn't..
So,please stop talking bullshit there..
I pleased you to stop creating problem..
I am not mature enough also,but at least better than you^^
Thank you for the cooperation~
Damn!!!

My mom's told me that today 3pm my dad's was calling her..
Guess what!!!
Talk a lot of bullshit la...What else...
Saying that he will die soon,this time maybe is the last time can heard his voice..
He will left all of cash/saving to my mom's..
Ask my mom's turn on the voice recording and save what he saying on the phone..
Another stupid is Ah Ming Gor!!
I hated him so so so so so much...
After a long shit story..
finally,my mom's was angry..
So both of these 2 stupids were stopped the topic and end call...

I don't have a good father but i had a good mother's...
She's the 1 loves me the most and sayang me the most ♥
Love you mummy's...

Darling...
You are SO cute ♥ hahaha...
As cute as my stupid laughing bear :p
=====> I never speak rude/bad words OK...
And YOU..Please stop ^^

=====> Remember that i am a GIRL ^^ xoxo
Can't speak those words in front of me even through just on the phone^^ YEAH~

=====> Passport~~~
Wow..time passing super fast,FFK my friends almost half year already :p
I have to REALLY take an action la...
Wake up early and go to the f*cking slow likes a turtoise government department for my new passport~~~
Is it possible it will be done in May'2010??
ha ha ha.....No one will know the answer :p
But..........this time is because of HIM ♥
So...........No choice..I am not willing to lets my ears torture by HIM :p

Yeah~~~Tomorrow is 1st of May..
Labour day's..........
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Nothing's special!!!
Don't know all peoples out there happy for what~
I can't go anywhere also~ Damn...
I wanna go Bukit Bintang!!!!!

NO LIFE

♥ Party ♥
♥ Clubbing ♥
♥ Shopping ♥
♥ Beer Session ♥
♥ Crazy Gathering ♥
♥ Dating ♥
=======> My Life

But now..........
No party~
No Clubbing~
No shopping~
No Beer session~
No Crazy gathering~
No Dating~
=======> No Life

I can't take it anymore!!!
This weekend must go Pavilion or Bukit Bintang walk walk ^^
I want Nasi Lemak + Teh C panas with less sugar..
I want a cup of hot Vanilla..
I want a glass of ice chocolate..
I want a pack of cream puff..
I think that's all what i can eat!! Sigh...
I am not going to shopping and buy any new clothes!!
Since i couldn't be a pretty girl and go party!!
So,buy clothes for what???
Sigh.....
I am SO poor la T_T

Finally,Agnes back to outlet and work^^
With her Dior spec and Juicy silver jacket^^
With her long hair and didn't tie up her hair^^
Without any make up^^
But peoples said i am look cuter than before ♥
**Hey,look like a little good girl**
Hahaha
I had never go to work without any make up even just a lip gross :p
But now i did and i feel SO fresh^^
Some more i can save a lot of time in the early morning^^
Because don't need to waste time for make up~
Yay.....

Wow~~~
My Darling's can back to his sweet sweet home d ♥
xoxo
You can have a very relax holiday,hibernate till you feel ENOUGH!!
Hibernation is always best ♥
But,do remember to sleep with your blanket ya~
I don't hope you will fall in sick,just like your baby's T_T
Darling,sorry to make you worried bout me ya~
I promised that i will take good care of myself OK~
I am trying my best...
Have a beautiful winter sleep ya...
I am here always miss you ♥ muacksss

♥ 非常にあなたを逃す♥

Sore throat,Fever and headache..
Didn't go work today,unpaid medical leave..
Sigh.....
18 days didn't back to outlet already~
Sam decided going to resign and will only work till end of June~
And i do deciding about it as well...
Should i?

BBM with my dear hunnn ♥
Both of us also fall in sick! Damn pity actually~
We do know is because always play till midnight and too much parties then only becomes easier to fall in sick...
We do know OK...
But,what to do???
No alcohol No party = No life
That's life~
Even through we knew what makes us sick!
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We talked about some Men topic as well~
The overall answer after what we discussed is...
Do not to believe what a guy talk to a girl ^^
If you choose to believe then please believe HALF...
Half is more than enough~
I really don't understand,how come you still wanna cheat her??
Lier is always a lier!
Non of my business actually~
I have always to tell myself...
I don't have the *responsibility* to help you to cover what u cheated at her^^
I am just tired of this such of bullshit~
By the way,that's your life...
I and we also not willing to help and get into the trouble^^

Went to see a Chinese Traditional doctor..
He said because i always play till midnight and too parties..
That's a most important reason to make my body becomes so weak!!!
Sigh.....
My mummy's didn't say much...
She was just asking me,are you going to online till midnight in this few days?
I have to rest as early as i can..
So that i only can recover and to be a healthy good girl again^^

♥ My Love...♥
I miss your voice so much...
I miss you a lot..
I miss you more than i miss my Dad's :p
And i love you (for today) ♥
Everyday my ♥ for you is difference~
Today,my love for you is just like a dark chocolate~
How about you?? Do you miss me? ♥
I really wish you could be with me now,so that my head can lean on your shoulder^^
Especially when i get sick!
I need your sayang ♥
But,i do hope you can work harder..
That's most important~
I understood..The feeling when you are be alone over there was not so good~
But..that's your career ^^
Anyhow,take good care ya...Especially during Winter~
Lovessss you My Darling Daryl ♥

Medical leave..........>> END

Finally,removed those stitches~
Not as pain as i think ^^ *lucky*
But i still can see the scar,doctor's said gotta take about 3 months only will fully recover and disappear~
1 month cannot make up,sigh.....
Anyhow,i will take good care and be careful..
Thanks to my buddies for those *funny* concerns ya :p
Will meet up with you guys as soon as possible~
But,please!!
Don't ever try to makes me laugh (you guys are too funny to me)
So,please don't!!
You guys believed i will really punch yours with all my energy n power right^^
By the way,keep BBM ♥

Went to Mid Valley with sis's~
Both of us went to the camera shop~
Wow!! the Sony pink cam really very nice and beautiful ♥
It's SO match me :p
Then went to the Canon shop after that...
The new Canon pink cam also not bad..
Sigh...
Considered for so long already...
Am i too choosy? (i think i am not) ^^
Any idea?
Sony pink or Canon pink ya??!!!
I want a pink cam for my upcoming beautiful life^^
Hope it will save a lot of happy sweet memories for me
and darling when i be with him ♥
P/s: Buddies,i am gonna take as much as i can :p imao

Tomorrow will back to work...
17 days didn't back to my outlet already~
Mummy's said she will wake up earlier and prepare the lunch box for me^^
Because she is not allowed me to buy outside foods!
Thank to you ya my best ever mother ♥

I can't online till midnight already~
Sad!!
Darling,i am gonna miss you more and more,deep and deep ♥
muacksssss
Don't be a naughty boy OK~
With loves ♥

Monday is coming

My brother's was helping me to clear all of those comic books~
Suddenly,my mummy's ask me did i read this card before?
Hmm.. I didn't~
This card given to my Ex by a girl when he was still together with me~
He kept so many presents from all those bitches..
But i didn't and never realized it...
How stupid am i?
By the way,it's not important to me anymore~
Don't have any feeling when reading the card~
Cause my mind is just thinking of my Darling but not others ♥
Today,just as usual~
I miss him so much ^^


Sony or Canon?
I ♥ the Sony camera in pink is because i like the outlook~
Damn match me...
And i created a name for it...Pinky...^^
Nice isn't?
But..Sony or Canon??
I ♥ Sony ... Others just saying Canon is better than Sony!!!
Arrrggg.....

Tomorrow is Monday~
Will going to the same operation room to take out the stitches from the wound!!
Sure very pain!!! Scare me!!!
But never mind,i think i am tough enough..
Will be better after i step out from the operation room^^
Cheers ya~~~
Agnes...you can do it^^