给我 给他 给你们

意志力超弱的我～
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我永远都败给意志力～
曾经有人对我说过：在你的生活圈子，环绕着你有太多美丽的东西吸引你。
而意志力超弱的你终是让这些东西牵着走～
没错！这是我最大的弱点而我到今天为止还是一样，从没变过！
这个弱点让我在这么多年里失去了太多 太多 太多的东西和机会～

我失去了去温哥华继续习舞的机会，失去了可以在台上独舞的机会，
失去了排舞给我最爱学生们的机会，失去了我最爱教学的机会。。。

而这一切都因为我意志力不够坚定，我输不起！
从来都没有人知道我放弃舞蹈的真正原因，不告诉任何人是因为连我自己也接受不了那个所谓自己做出的决定。。

机会接二连三的给我，但我得到的却是 -后悔-，因为我从没学会 -珍惜-

没责任感的我～
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责任感是我一直都没去学习的东西！
从小到大，周围所有的人都非常宠坏我，让我从不需要对任何事情负责～
这也使我因为某些事情失去了某些人 某些东西！
我必须对自己所作的事情负责！

花心的我～
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花心的我因为永远在我身边终是有太多的选择。
不止是感情，而是人事物。
永远做不出决定，终是三心两意！
蛮讨厌这样的自己！我从没否认我不花心！

终是把事情收在心里的我～
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我心里收了很多不告诉任何人的东西，我喜欢自己说给自己听，只给自己知道～
有的时候只因为我不想开口，让所有我想说的东西把它转变成文字～
开口对别人说，那人必定会问你问题，为什么 为什么。。。
我讨厌回答问题～
-----我情愿不说～

给某个人，某些人～
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有些事情不去宣布不等于我要隐藏，别人会顺其自然的知道。
说得越多，别人问的问题就会越多。
坦白说，我真的不敢爱。
爱得深，痛得深！这句话每次都会实现。
这么多次的经验，每个男人在开始的时候都会对他所谓的女人很好，一大堆关于 -永远- 的字眼！
而女人终是傻傻的去相信，到最后得到的是什么？？心痛一整天！
别太容易去相信男人，让时间去证明一切！

好男人有多少位？当你遇到的时候会觉得这一切都来得不大真实，终是害怕这只是一场梦，到最后总是梦醒～而一切美好的东西只能当成回忆。。。

要女人们放弃想念一位男人是非常难的，说容易但要真正做到真的很难！

有人说过：你嫁的那位必定不是你最爱的，你最爱的肯定不是你能嫁的那一位！

男人，请不要对你爱的人说 -永远- 这两个字，因为你不会知道会在 哪一天 哪一秒 这两个字会让你曾经爱的人心痛！

珍惜现在所拥有的，因为这一切只属于你和他/她。。即使将来如何都好，这些回忆只属于你们俩～
甜蜜并不能永久，但至少体会过～
珍惜你爱的人和爱你的人～

Lose to myself

I am feel sad and emo now..
Why suddenly remember the dance & yoga life again?? I thought i can forget it?
I admit i miss my dance world so much and couldn't forget it till death..

Am i a loser? I lose to myself...

1st time to give up:
I couldn't accept i stopped dance classes for 3 months, cause i can't catch up all the new skills in a week! YES!! I am so stupid, but no one understand what's the feeling that i had.. I am not strong enough when i was 17 years old, so decided to give up my wonderful and meaningful dance life~
I disappointed a person so deeply until now i still can't forgive myself!


2nd time to give up:
I was back to my world again, i took International Yoga Teacher Training Course..
Started to teaching Yoga,glad that many students also like my class and teaching style..Actually just because i got HER, she makes my teaching skill be the best...
But,it was the 2nd time i disappointed her again..Sorry!! I will never forgive myself...This time,i lose to myself again!!Because of some issues..

My friends, My family, My dance buddies...All of them are supporting and pushing me back to the * Dance World *.....

I am asking myself, is it so hard to make a decision??

I bet no one is understand how's the feeling when i give up the real world of me!

Peoples said: You are born to live in the dance world, God's given you the potentials and so many chances..But why don't you stay and continue??

Now, God gives me the 3rd chances.. But should i?
How come suddenly give me a chance again?? I am not so in a mood!!!

♥ Agnes Nes ♥

Welcome myself back to the blog~
I've been stop blogging nearly two months.. I wish in the future i can share all my happening life here with you guys ^^

I did say it before " Single life for two months " and now i did it...
However, is time for me to look for another man =)
I think i am ready for a new relationship, no rush but looking ^^
Actually i am very enjoying my recent life, always outing with my babes & friends~
So, maybe still will being as a single girl ♥

Now i only realized that got many peoples also think Agnes Nes is a playgirl and playing around.. Just because of my outlook and what they see, never know about me... But it's alright, cause i also asking myself, AM I ?? I admit i am playful but haven't reach the level of PLAYGIRL..

Honestly, i am very friendly, even though is new friend, i also can treat you as a best friend.. But what others people think is Agnes Nes is flirting around.. - Speechless -

I am open minded, but not that kind can simple O N S with peoples OK?

I ♥ clubbing, ♥ alcohol, ♥ dancing, ♥ chit-chatting..It's my life, no one can stop me or keep telling me what bad on these activities!
If you love me then must accept my life~
Will trying to cut down but will never stop~

Still thinking should i back to my dancing life?
Ballet, Contemporary, Tap, Jazz, Modern dance, Yoga & Pilates... I miss all of my students very much!!! I felt so touching cause i always received my students msg from FB, they said: Teacher Agnes, i miss you, when you come back and teach us...
Seriously, i feel like to cry when every times i see and read it...

Every times when i thinking my dancing life, i feel so sorry to some one~ What i owe her will never able can return to her.. What she gave me is just too much and i disappointed her too much!!

Japanese class:
Oh My God!! It's August!!! And i am ready to back to my Japanese class student life... Feel so excited, can't wait can't wait ♥

Will update some post about life of Agnes Nes On June & July ^^
Once again, welcome myself back to the blog ♥

To my Babe Elin, Happy Birthday ya~~~

Finally...END

Finally, i heard what i wanna listen from you..
--Enough--
--Pretend never knew you-- and ect..
Thanks for those words my love, it was really could make me totally give up and let you go and of cause won't think you so much...

You should know that i can't just simple to pretend never knew you ^^
But i will try my best to do it as you wish~
I am not going to know what is the reason anymore and just leave you alone like that...

Here i wanna say something to you *last* and *no more*

Thank you for these few months for those sweet ever memories..
Thank you for given me the special warm feeling..
Thank you for those concerns when i was down and unhappy,especially during my operation..
Thank you for calling and sms me everyday when you are in South Africa... I knew the amount of the bill is damn high...
Thank you for buying the BB even though you still haven't activate the BIS since you were in South Africa till now.. I won't have the chance to see your name appear on my BBM contact list anymore~ But i hope you will enjoy the entertainment through the BB~

Sorry to you if i did something to make you feel not well...
Sorry to you if i said something to make you angry at me...
Sorry to you if i always sms you to make you feel like i disturbed you..
SMS you ----> just wanna concern you as i treat you as my friend..
Sorry if i did wrong.. I won't do it anymore!

Daryl, take good care of yourself.. Wish your businesses are doing well and smooth..All of the problems sure can be settle by you as i know you are strong enough ^^ Enjoy your life~ Not going to say Sorry anymore but Thank You :p
I hope we can talk with each other face to face one day but not now, chatting without stress just like normal friend ^^ Take Care~

Yesterday i was allowed myself to let my tears dropping from my sleepy eyes..I was telling myself,just the few minutes OK? After all these everything will be alright..No more pain and suffer,stop thinking and stop blaming..Upset for a week is more than enough,not worth to let the sadness full filled my mind~

Gosh!!! I did it... I feel the fresh of my new life again..I had a very busy day,although i still have think of you a few moments,but it didn't affect my mood or be a emo crab again ^^
**Crap for myself**

I am starting my new life again..I am single but not available now till i get to meet a guy that can give me the good feeling.. But i promised to myself won't fall in love easily and don't trust guys so simply..

Recent life is full of working, clubbing, party, shopping, yum cha ^^
I am planning to go Bukit Bintang with family for a yummy lunchie on Saturday then do some shopping *if Friday i won't go for clubbing la* hahaha
Sunday will going to Sunway Pyramid meet up with my dear for a relaxing lunch gossip session and do some shopping also ^^

Some one told me will going to buy me *my favorite japanese cheese cake* hahaha
I am waiting for it ya...Thankew bely muchie..

I do planning to go for a short relaxing trip with some closed friends ^^
BEACH!! I am gonna celebrate my birthday!! yea yea bili bala bili bala~~~lalala...

Last week of May'2010

Woo Hoo.....Finally today is 24th of May ^^
It's end of the month!!
Another don't know 10 or 11 days my hubby will be in Malaysia~
Lets continue counting down for it...

Today is my bad luck Monday..
Sigh...i am lazy to tell you guys about the story because i have been repeat and repeat to many peoples the same story!!

I am gonna open another new blog^^
Here got a lot of my old memories,i did share the sad and happy story with u guys since few years ago,and now i decided to stop to update any latest news here...
More than 200 posts,tonight i am going to read all of the old and new posts,after that i will stop~
I hope i can do it :p

Thanks for supporting me all the times..

A story gonna end soon...

两个生活在不同圈子，生活方式不一样的人如何能够在一起呢？
你每次都问为什么接受你？
关于这个问题，我真的没有一个答案。
我想你是一个好男人，所有你的好友都是这样告诉我。
但是，有些事情我真的不能接受。
就和你所说的一样 *I am who i am*
我能尝试去接受某些事情，但有些过分的我真的不能接受！
越了解对方就会使我们的距离拉得更远。
有些事情，越想要去忘记，但它越往心里进！
如果要你迁就我到那么不开心，那我只好说声 *SORRY*
原来恋爱的美好回忆就只有那开始的几个月。
每个女孩在一段恋情刚开始的时候，都会想要和对方有着那么一个 *forever*
为爱付出后换来的只有遗憾，失望，伤心。
后悔的可能是自己没有那么一份意志力去坚持，去维护这一段感情。
人生有太多的遗憾，而感情就占有超过五十巴仙。
男人们在刚开始的时候，会对你说一大堆东西。
他们从不知道，女生都会把它当真，永记在心！
当恋情结束的时候，这些收在心里的全部都会变成毒药，令到心里有着无数的疼痛～

我给自己一段时间，真的不适合，我会放手～
有缘无分的话，可能只适合做朋友～
无论如何，我还是深爱着你～
让我再为这段恋情努力吧。。Ganbatte..直到你让我放弃～

Thank to you my ai ren..
You are always so honest to me,whatever you told me i also keep it in my mind and will never forget..
Sorry about something,i have a complicated feeling that makes me lost the confident to maintain the relationship,i just be honest to you too..
I feel something,that's from female 6th senses..
Sometimes i trust horoscope is just because its always telling the truth,not asking to give up but find a solution..
Trust me,i will work harder to keep it on but not give up...Don't disappoint me,i believe that you are good man..
But,if i always ask you to stop this and that and makes you so unhappy,then i will stop it and let you go...I just want you to be happy with me but not suffer~

I have many things feels like to speak out,but i know i have to keep in my heart..

Darling,i hope you can control your temper because i am really scared of talking with you :p
I am really loves you too much to do so~
Maybe don't have forever this such thing,but i hope me & you can stay together as long as we can..
Miss you ^^

~~ 複雑な気持ち ~~

I have a complicated feeling these few days,i know i should stop thinking too much but i couldn't control it...Stop all over it and let the time prove everything..

I am wondering how comes you guys will tell me those things so sudden? Makes me don't know how to facing you guys,don't you know i am suffering of it? Stop telling me please,i will still treat yours as my friend..

Me & Him are happy together now,if you are planning to spoil my relationship then i gotta tell you that you will disappointed..If you know i am in a relationship with him now then you should stop thinking about that and don't tell me anything already~
I never flirt with you guys and i really do treat yours as my normal friend,if i was do something that makes yours misunderstood or gets wrong feeling then i apologized here~

To D1:
My name is Agnes,please don't call me as your BB! I don't accept anyone to call me this nick unless you are my hubby or my 3D...Just now when u told me those things,others than offline,i didn't know what else i can do~ Sorry.. Give me some times and i will talk to you again..

To D2:
Hmm..I was so surprise when you were telling me those things,i never expect you still remember me and kept me in your heart,support and concern me all the times quietly~ But i only can say *Thank to you for all these*,i won't and not willing related into any messy relationship..You said you want me,you need me~ Thanks for telling me this but what i think is only because you were unhappy at the moment and just needs a talk~ Anyhow,i hope i won't listen it from you anymore~ Keep the friendship and just let it go! Sorry if i said something not so nice to you..

I don't like to argue with anyone especially my loves,i was feel damn sad when argue with you..What i can do is only be silent,i think is the better way for you and me~
Agnes wants to say *sorry* again to YOU MR DLKJ~
If i make you unhappy or angry then please tell me straightly as i wanna know what i did wrongs ^^

可能我们的生活圈子完全不一样，迁就对方可能只会带来痛苦，现在能做的只是尝试。
如果有一天，我们是时候离开对方，希望我们是因了解而分开。
在我离开后，你能做任何你自己喜欢的事，而不需幸苦的迁就我。
其实，昨天的我真的很不开心，但我还是提起精神，发出我的笑声去和你谈，一切只希望你能开心。
从没想过要你完全改变你自己，我希望你改的只希望你能更好，可能我的想法是错误的。
我想你应该忘记答应过我什么了，苯苯的我三不五时还会查看回你发给我的短讯，我想是时候该删除了。
给自己多一点时间去更了解你，不适合就该放手，爱久了，伤越痛。
我永远都不会让自己再去相信 *Forever* 这玩意啦。
*Promise* 如果把它当真，只会让自己再有机会去体会什么是伤痛，失望。
星座配对的我和你，不该开始，天方夜谭。
我选择不去相信，因为我有的是信心，但是。。。。。信心越来越少了。
无可否认，和你在一起真的很开心，和你一起到老，一起生活也是我希望的。
但是，如果需要我放手的话。。。我会～
不知你是否察觉到，自从你决定要回来后，脾气真的很坏，我能感觉到的东西已不一样。
无论怎样都好，只要你开心，Go ahead......
有些事情不能说出口，摆在心里又很难过，把所有的东西放进这里真好，我的他看不明白，也没有人知道我说着谁，有的话也就可能只有那几位～
Wow.....~
心情好多了。。